Mischief Managed

It hurts to still be your friend But I think thats actually the point. unfortunately I think it may be the ONLY reason we are still friends at least on my behalf I love you so much that Letting you hurt me is the only way I can let myself feel something genuinely intense. If it wasnt for the shitty feeling you give me I wouldn’t feel anything at all. I guess what im saying is that i’m hurt and drunk and really, shouldn’t be posting ANYTHING on ANY social network but I did and even though I know ill regret this tomorrow i’m drunk therefore I am uncontrollably reckless drunk drunk drunk. Fml. Why can’t I fucking stop … advice to my sober self this is unhealthy and needs to stop.

And it needs to be filled.

Theres a hole between my legs.

And it wants to be filled.